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迷路

因為累了,夜了,下雨了,沒戴上眼鏡而視線模糊,才會上錯車,被載往陌生的地方。車子一拐彎便發現所有景物也不對勁,熟悉的樓房沒有如應許一樣展示眼前。於是我在公車站下車,發短訊向人求救。然後換來嚴厲的聲音,教導,即使上錯車,也用不著如此慌張,向車站的職員查問,別掛掉電話,別掛掉,我要聽見你真的向人查問為止。於是我急得哭了,委屈得哭了。

慌張有甚麼不對。我心裡吶喊。哭有甚麼不對。覺得驚慌有甚麼不對。向他人求救有甚麼不對。害怕跟陌生人說話有甚麼不對。我心裡的吶喊繼續留在心裡。化妝糊掉黏在眼皮下。像被扔入雨中的整個人一起溶掉。

從來我也知道我有哪些見不得人的弱點,我也知道活到這個年歲,可得到的諒解必更少,我統統知道,只怕不知道的人,是他。

(當我很累了情緒很壞的時候,我甚至原諒不了任何從善意出發的教晦。就由我軟弱到化成泥土好了。我就是任性,這又有甚麼不對。就是不責備不行嗎?)

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Anonymous  said...

閃, 怎麼會迷路了? 即使長大了,那仍是令人很慌張的事情.

這個星期在廣州唸書, 很害怕會迷路, 總是緊貼大隊.像個小孩子似的.

我想,迷路了總會有辨法回家, 最令人害怕的, 大概是迷失了自己...

6:36 下午  
Anonymous  said...

to woman's shoes and swimming pool chemical, thx for visiting my site:)

i did customize the template, just changed the font size and the colour.

to 大,你在廣州嗎?那邊好像跟香港一樣也大雨連場呢,小心別迷路,我係一唔識路就好騰雞果種人,如果在香港以外的地方迷路,恐怕會更驚。

7:25 下午  
Anonymous  said...

我在今天下午剛回來.

如果告訴你我急不及待的到來這裡看你, 會不會感動呢? ^.^

8:08 下午  
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會啊!:)
好像有朋友來探望我似的~~

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